Wednesday, December 23, 2009

iloveyounomatterwhat

"There comes a point when you just love someone. Not because they’re good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn’t mean you’ll be together forever. It doesn’t mean you won’t hurt each other. It just means you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it."

Saturday, November 28, 2009

how true.

Most of the time, we are so in loved w someone else that we tend to forget to do the most important thing - self-love.


We don't have to love in words, because even through the silence, love can be heard (:

Monday, November 23, 2009

love really.


If you really want something,
GO FOR IT.
You only live once.
Don't regret :)

The Way I Do


Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you... the way I do

you're something like a phenomenon

You are not perfect. I am not either, and the two of us will never be perfect.
But you make me laugh, causes me to think twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes.
I will hold on to you and give you the most I can. You are not going to think about me every moment, but you will give me a part of you that I could break. I won't expect more than what you can give. I will smile when you make me happy, yell when you make me mad, and miss you when you're not there.

- grabbed from supergirladdy :D


take my hands, knot your fingers through mine, and never let go, okay?

Thursday, November 19, 2009


Every night I stayed up thinking my mind's made up
every memory I hold on to.
If I could only have a minute, I know how I'd spend it
saying everything I feel for you.



I'm tired of the daily routines. I am sick of the same old scenery. I am so bored with my life that I can get on a plane and never come back. Life is so beautiful when you really, truly experience it.

Monday, November 2, 2009

nice (:

I believe - that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I believe - that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I believe - that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I believe - that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I believe - that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I believe - that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I believe - that you can keep going long after you can't.
I believe - that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I believe - that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I believe - that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I believe - that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I believe - that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I believe - that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I believe - that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.
I believe - that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I believe - that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I believe - that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I believe - that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I believe - that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I believe - that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I believe - that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I believe - that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I believe - that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I believe - that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I believe - that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I believe - that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I believe - that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon ... so you have to always tell them you love them.

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THE MAN IN THE MIRROR

When you get what you want in your struggle for self
And the world makes you king for a day;
Then go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what that man has to say.

For it isn’t a man’s father, mother or wife,
Whose judgment upon him must pass;
The fellow whose verdict counts most in his life,
Is the man staring back from the glass.

He’s the fellow to please, never mind all the rest,
For he’s with you clear up to the end;
And you’ve passed your most dangerous, difficult test,
If the man in the glass is your friend.

You can fool the whole world down the pathway of years,
And get pats on the back as you pass;
But your final reward will be heartache and tears,
If you’ve cheated the man In the glass.

Anonymous (this poem was found written on the wall of a cell in death row.)

Monday, October 19, 2009

Because sometimes there is no easy way out.
You just have to grin and bear it.
Sometimes the only escape route
is to go straight through the flames,
just brace yourself and bite your lip.

Sometimes you have to sever the ties clean off.
Because in every relationship there comes a point
when the damage is too much and no matter how good it once was,
the memories can’t sustain you.

You have to save yourself
knowing all the while it will hurt like hell.
Because you can’t keep giving someone
everything if you get nothing in return.

Sunday, October 18, 2009


Funny how a photograph can take you back in time
to places and embraces that you thought you left behind.



The world is full of goodbyes.
You probably meet a new one every day,
but that never makes it any easier.


Saturday, October 17, 2009

Think before you act.

Dear Mommy,

I am in Heaven now, sitting on god's lap. He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken. I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened. I was so excited when I began realizing my existance.

I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.

Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me. Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you. Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much. One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me. Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop.

I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me. I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me to god and set me on His lap. He said He loved me, and He was my Father now. Then I was happy. I asked Him what the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster. I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.

I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did. Please be careful.


Love,
Your Baby Girl

Monday, October 5, 2009

i just wish times like this can last forever (:


(:


Forgive me for liking you too much, I'll forgive you for not liking me enough. Forgive me for the loud racing of my heart, I'll forgive you for not hearing it. Forgive me for finding you amazing, I'll forgive you for never noticing.
Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything, I'll forgive you for avoiding me.
Forgive me for being so pathetic, I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it. Forgive me for not being able to let go, I'll forgive you for never holding on.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Thursday, October 1, 2009

the danger of a broken heart


the danger of a broken heart is not the pain.
not the tears, or anger.
not the ache, not the loneliness,
not the quiet, the empty seat, the bed now much too big.

the danger of a broken heart is what we have to repair it with.
mistrust, hopelessness, faux comfort.
independence.
the oaths we take. what we swear to ourselves.
the danger is self-reliance.

the danger is that these stitches in our heart don't fall out.
that they are there to stay.
because they must.

the danger is that we know it isn't about love anymore.
and,
it isn't about how perfect we are in our world.
it's about how perfect we are in theirs.

the danger is that two became one.
and a half of one...
well.

half is not whole.

but now we must make it so.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

if only everyday is like today


I guess what scares me the most is knowing that at any moment you could rip my heart out and step on it, and I'd just pick up the pieces and hand them right back to you.



I think everyone has a certain part of their life where they truly wish they could freeze time.
Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come.
Whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer.
Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would
just stop, the world would stop turning and the people would stop changing.
Because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.


(:

Monday, September 28, 2009

" Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do.

Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.“

— Bob Marley

selfish vs understanding


I wish I could hold onto this feeling forever. I don’t want to forget. I don’t want to forget how to feel this way because if one day we have to go our separate ways, I still want to remember how to love you.


I think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. The world would stop turning and people would stop changing because to them, at that time, everything was perfect.

Sunday, September 27, 2009



i need you so much closer.

guy to girl

girl: why do you keep talking to me even though i never ever talk back to you? why do you keep asking me out when i've always said no?

guy: because, for each time you say no, there is always this possibility you might one day say yes. and i'm willing to go through this time and time again just to live for that slight possibility.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

this is what it's all about


Music is a total constant. That’s why we have such a strong visceral connection to it, you know? Because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. No matter what else has changed in you or the world, that one song stays the same, just like that moment.


And try doing this!


I dedicate this message to everyone who is reading this now (:

Friday, September 25, 2009

O-Town - All or Nothing



I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eye
I thought with time you'd realize
It's over over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older older
You know I'd fight for you
But how I can fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you
I dont care if that's not fair

Chorus:
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart
But I dont show it show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know it know it

Don't make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell

Chorus

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
No room inside for me in your life
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never

Chorus x2


this sounds nice although i seldom listen to english songs :)